` ` HURTX Mi N0T PLS`?!?,,*

WHY`?! y lik tiS`?!!? tiS iSh n0t a j0urnAl,, tiS iSh n0t a entry..` tiS iSh a pieCe 0f SH1T`!!! x((
wEll~`` in tiS liFe time,, i've 0nLi seri0us wif 2 gUys i l0ved the m0st..` 0ne iSh my dEaRr,, 0ne iSh my ex..` i dun0 y thEy kEep sAying thEy l0ve mi,, bUt in the 0thEr hAnd thEy hUrtx mi s0o dEeP..` i fEeL lik cRying whEnevA i tHiNk 0f thEm,, hUrting mi s0o dEep,, jUx lik teAring my heArt int0 2..` i dun0 wAd t0 sAe i 0nLi cAn cRy 0ut l0ud..` bUt wh0 n0es`?! euu tHink thEy n0e h0w i fEeL`?! if thEy n0e,, thEy wUn hAf diD s0o mAny tHiNgs tAt hUrtx mi le..` x(( WTH thEy tHiNking`?! WTF y thEy kEep sAying they wUn hUrt mi bUt thEy did`!?!?! x((

HIM*,, dUn sAe La..` dun0 wAd thE hEll he's d0ing os0..` i tRy t0 chAnge s0o mUch f0rr him..` i tRy t0 f0rget eVytHing & hAppiLy wif him..` bUt wAd he diD t0tALy diSapp0int mi..` x(( i wAs s0o t0opiDd As i t0k he's rEaly seri0us in tiS relAti0nsHip,, rEaLy l0ve mi as i d0..` bUt i wAs wr0ng..` t0ld mi s0o mUch 0f swEet tAlk lEt mi bEliEve evy siNgLe sH1t he sAid t0 mi..` WTH in the eNd`?! he lEft mi al0ne,, lEft mi wif s0o mAny rEgrEts..` WHY`?! he t0ok wAdevA he wAn & sAe s0wwie,, prEtEnd lik n0thing hAppen..` the dAEs wif him iSh s0o sh0rt,, the hAppiness m0ment iSh s0o unf0rgettAbLe..` i dUn evEn uNdErstAnd him..` i dUn evEn n0e wAd he wAns..` i dun EvEn n0e y mUx he diD tiS t0 mi..` uNtiL n0w we hAf br0ke 0ff f0rr s0o mAny mths,, i'm stiL tHiNking y mUx he hUrtx mi s0o dEep`?! lEft mi with0ut any reAs0ns..` i'm t0tAly diSap0inted in hiS aCti0n..` i rEaLy g0t n0thing t0 sAe..` x(( wAn him t0 pEi mi m0re,,He Prefer To speNd HiS TimE wiF hIS fREnZ..i g0t n0thing t0 sAe..` i rEspEct hiS dEsici0n..` 0f cUx i wAs t0tALy breAk d0wn..` i n0e tiS relAti0nsHip wUn lASt l0ng..` as the dAes g0es by i n0e he's entertAining mi..` i rEaLy l0ve him al0t,, i mAde tHings f0rr him,, wAited f0rr him aftEr w0rk,, alwAys wAnted t0 mEet him alth0ugh i cAnt g0 0ut..` Even How BusY AM i..i PrEfER TO aCOoMpanY hIM ..SUmetIMES IM EVeN latE to TuITiON..i wEnt h0me lAte & sc0lded by my pArEnts as i wAn t0 spEnt the time wif him m0re..` he jUx dun0 h0w mUch i've d0ne f0rr him..` aftEr tAt i reAlise y he treAted mi s0o c0ld,, x(( SEE! h0w t0opiDd am i`?! x(( treAting mi lik a f0ol..` =''( i diDn't blAme him aftEr aL..` cUx i n0e he g0t hiS 0wn reAs0n..` he n0e wAd he's d0ing..` n0 0ne cAn st0p him..` c0uld he l0ve mi agAin`?! i d0ubt s0o..`

y euu alwAys sAe euu l0ve mi,, sAe euu wUn liE t0 mi,, sAe eUu wUn l0ve 0ther gEr,, sAe eUu wUn qUaRrEl wif mi,, sAe eUu wUn hUrtx mi,, sAe eUu wUn mAke mi cRy 0r evEn sAd..` NAHS`!!! euu LIE`!!! x(( i HATE it`! euu wUn all0w mi t0 g0 0ut wif my frEns,, i dun0 y..` jUx cUx euu scAre i t0n`?! jUx cUx euu scAre i miGht f0rget t0 sms euu,, jUx cUx euu scAre pPl wiL c0me uP t0 distUrb uS,, DUNX`!!! i wAnna spEnt my time wif thEm..` thEy r os0 my preci0us when euu r n0t ar0und wif mi..` thEy os0 s0me0ne i nEed whEn i'm sAd..` i nEed thEir advice t0o..` i diDn't st0p euu fRm g0ing 0ut wif uR frEns,, whiCh tAught euu t0 sm0ke,,WTF`?!? euu wEnt 0ut lAte lAte eVytime evEn u have To work oN dE neXT DAy..buT i PreFeR to DO alL diZ..euu wEnt t0 th0se plAces i dUn lik euu t0 g0..` i st0pped euu s0o mAny times,, BUt u sAY I wiLl BE alRite..Juz LeT MI enJOy.. DeARr i dUn miNd euu n0t yAndA0 as 0utsiDe pPl,, n0t as riCh as thEm,, n0t tAll as thEm,, n0t gEntLemAn as thEm..` aL tiS i DUN MIND`!!! x(( i 0nLi wAn *XINFU* From euu ..u undErstAnd`?!?euu n0e i rEaLy l0ve euu al0t & chAnged s0o mUch..` euu dUn lik i cl0se wif b0ys,, i diDn't..` i alwAys rep0rt wh0 SMS mi,, wh0 MSN mi..` x(( euu l0ok & chEck at my hP whenevA thEre's a mEet uP..` i dUn minD`` i'm n0t scAre..` i SWEAR i diDn't dElete aNytHiNg`! pPl wAn my nUmbEr.im alwayZ tell Them IM noT usiNG..so WHy shUd U tReat mI lYKE dAT?i diDn't t0ld euu cUx i n0e euu miGht sAe i blUFf..` IM afriAd t0 l0se euu..` pPl ji0 mi,, ji0 mi pAtch i REJECTED,, aL cuX 0f euu`!!!! x(( i dUn wAn euu sm0ke,, cUx i dUn wAn euu g0t a bAd heAlth or s0oner 0r lAter euu miGht leAve tiS w0rld fAStEr dEn uS=x i dUn wAn euu g0 0ut wif thEm,, as i n0e euu QUITed uR bAd hAbits .i NOe Iz DIff Fer euU To DO iT IMmeDIaTELy..BUt I neBA BlamE euu....` i dUn wAn euu s0o cl0se t0 gErs,, cUx i scAre i miGht l0se euu,, i scAre thEy miGht snAtch euu awae fRm mi 0r i miGht gEt s0me miSuNdErstAnding wif thEm..` i dUn wAn euu stAy uP lAte cUx i'm w0rry ...``
evErytiMe aftEr eVytHiNg,, i CRIED,, i gEt HURTX,, dEn thEy sAe "sorry" wAn uS t0 f0rget eVytHiNg lik nv hAppen bef0re..` euu tHiNk i cAn`?! i n0e euu cAN..` cUx euu wUn rEaLy cAre ab0ut mi..` euu dUn evEn n0e i'm pUtting a br0ken smiLe..` euu jUx dun0..` hAix`` "sorry" tis w0rd dUn meAn euu sAid it,, eVytHiNg wiL bAck t0 n0rmAl..` - *DUN SAE - S0RRY - IF EUU DUN0 H0W T0 USE IT* hAix`` i alwAys treAt my steAd s0o gD,, bUt i diDn't gEt any aNy g0od..` pPL ASk mi t0 giv up thEm,, bUt i diDn't..` cUx i n0e if i leAve thEm,, thEy wiL gEt hUrtx..` i rAther gEt hUrtx dEn l0oking at my l0ve 0nes s0bbing..` tiS iSh n0t t0opiDd,, n0t a f0ol..` *
Iz aLl OvEr..i DuN nEd euU To sAy aNEThINg..i Juz WAna havE moI oWN lIfE noW...

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