The One I LOve n The ONe I ned To GIv uP..

babY PiIko ish beK agAin..``loLz..i JUz BEk FroM MoI hOmeTOwn..i've taKE a LOnG hoLiday tO resT MoI mInd..``fiNnALy i GOt To cuM Bek kL ..``relI dO EnJOy myseLF eVYdaY N evYnite wIF moI fReNZ..``EvyBOdY SmiLE noN SToP. evenThouGh i CeLEbrAte my xMAS daEz at ThaI buT IsH rELi eNjoY..``ReLi a SwEeT memORieZ fER mI XpeSiaLLy dE tIme I wenT fEr MaSsAge..i loVE tHE wORKeR so MuCH.theY did Their gUD job..``miss EUu gUyZ so MuCH,,``XpeSIaLLy got 1 hanSEM ThAI Guyz..tOtAlY funNy``heHEHe``

Im SO SuffER nwDaEz..i dunO wHY ..I dO EnJOy mY XMaS At Thai buT My heARt jUZ cANt stOp thInkINg oF hIM..Why!!!i DUn EVeN daRE to C hIs PIC n ThiNk Of Him..it makE mI so DIFf Tu SurVIve..!!!i DUnO whEN cAN i C hIM BEk..WHEn Can We GO oUT toGEther..wheN HE Can CUm My HSe to FEtcH mI AgaIN..!!when?!! shIt!!

I admIt I Do lOve hIM..``I can Lie MysElf buT i RelI CanT LIe TO mY MInd N heARt!!I aDmiT i reLI fAil TO Do Dat!!Why I hAvE to JEleS WHeN he TAlk TO OTheRz gEr?!!wHY dIZ feELinG MUz enTer My HEarT?!!I cANt gEt De ANsWeR!!DaEZ bY DaEZ My liFE b CUm WeaKER n wEakEr..enemY KEEp On ATtaCKiNG MI..MAKe Mi GONa MAd..!!! DAez bY daeZ i DroP My tEarS..BUt noboDY NoeZ..I woNt TEll hiM cUZ i RELi Dowan HiM to noE WaT AM i DOin..``!!i noe He WoNt CarE!!I nOE hE wonT!!

HUa..watZ isH In Ur Mind?!!cAN i noe marx?!!I reLi WIsh tuU nOE wat N wHU ISh ACtUAllY In Ur heARt N MInd..!!!i WOnT mInD eVEntHoUgH DAt peRsoN iSH NOt Mi!!i SCare ONe DaeZ i CanT cOnNInue dIZ jOurNEy ANemORe..``im so TirEd..!!yeAHx U dO say wE aRE imPossiBle TOgetHER so fAst..i wiLl LisTeN to Wat euU sAY..``I woNt SAY aNEtHInG..!!

BUt i REli Dun UNDErStaND wHY HE HurT MI ONcE n OncE..!!Juz IntRo Mi TO oTher GuYZ..IS dAT uR wiSH?!!if I Noe Ur FreNZ.Than wIll u be HAPpIE maRX?!!EvyThiNg wiLl bE fiNE maRX?!!Hua Why?!!whY u DO sO..i Noe U dO Says sOWIeE..BUt The WOrD sOWieE cANt BE accEPted eVYtIme n aNYwHEre..!!cAN u juZ tHinK oF mI whEN U dO sUMEthIN?!!im noT a ToY dat U cAN DuMp iT wHEnEva u Are BoreD wIF dAT!!I ReLI Feel DAt im rEli A sTUpID geR..``Why SHud I LOve Eu?!!Did I CHooSe a WROng PErSOn?!!
Why SHud I do ALl Diz FER?!!

Hua..i RElI DUn HopE to get ur HEarT!!I NOE ish imPosIBle fEr MI TO siT INSIdE ur HEaRT ...aM I rITE?!!CUz De GeR u neD ish noT Mi..!!De GEr U LoVE Ish not mi to..``!!but i Juz WaNA Noes SumeThiNg Can MarX?!!Plz telL mI iF euU lOve Mi..n plZ teLL MI IF u duN lOve Mi!!i RelI ThINk TO leAve EvyThiNg..BUt I canT!!I JuZ wANa NoE dE anSwEr N I wiLl LEavE aFter DAT...``I woNt dIStuRB UR lifE..i WIlL leT u fReE..``Im RELi SowIEe to MAke UR liFe ComplICateD.. i noe IF I neVA apPEaR iN UR lIFe..nOtHIn WIlL haPPeN..eVryThINg WIlL BE fiNE ..!!I relI nEva WIsh to DO daT HuA..!!:(

I JUz keEp On dROPpINg My TEars WHeN i WRote DIz BloG!!goD plz HELp Mi!!I reLi CanT STOp DroPpIng mY teARs!!!My TEars KEEp oN roLinG dOWn N dOWn...:(WHy God HAV To let mI choOsE diZ roAD.?!!Why??!!!cAN i sTop chOOsinG?!!iM so sAD...IM so moOdY..I jUZ cANT LovE him cUZ i ScARE to lOSt hIM ONE dAYz..!!i noe HE wonT sTAy BY My SIdE foRevA..Cuz One Day HE wIlL bEK TO His Own WorLD..``IM DrEminG.,..Juz dREamINg...!!fOREva DreaMInG...!!I WIlL lET Go EvytHINg...CUz I Noe he WOnT NOe How I feeL N HOW hUrt am I..``I WOnT LET HiM nOE..!!I wONT TeLL Him!!cUz I pROmisE hIM To MAKe Him HApPIE foREVa..I wiLL GO on mYSelF..!!Im SOrRYY..iM so SOrYy...!!!

hUA I aDmit I ReLi LovE Euu so muCh..``bUt i noE isH usELeSs...ISh juZ A dReAM fER mI n i noe fer EuU ISH Juz A jOke N A FaIRY TAle..!!u Wont taKE it seRiouz CUz i noe U woNt loVE a stUpId Pig LyKE mi RITE?!!I wiLl GO..I cANt fiGhT fEr Dat..i RElI wiSH Dat u Can Be HapPie ALWayZ..i NEd TO c U HAppIe CUz I pROmiSe TO mAke U HAppie..!so i cANt Be SELfiSH ..!!IF i leAVe wiLl U haPPie?!!im wEak in loVe N IM WeAK TO LOve EUu..!!buT iM relI HAppIE Cuz GeT to nOE u IN My LifE..I wiLl ReMEmbeR dAt AlwAyz..!!

huA reMEmBER ALWaYZ TaKE cARe oF uRseLF.DUn AlwAyz SleEP LaTE can maRX?!!I REli DowAN to C eUu fALl SIck oNE daYZ..``diz TIme IF i leaVE I woNt cONtaCT EUu ANemORE..I dOWaN tWo of US B cuM enEMY b CUZ oF lOve..``I relI dOWan!!

diZ iSH MY LAst bLoG FeR nw n ForEva..i woNT BEk TO bLoG aNEMore..``I tHiNK I CaNT CoNtinUE aNEmorE..I HAv tO StOP HErE Cuz My HeARt Ish meLt..``noBOdY wiL Noe WaT iM tHinkIng..

LaSlTy i Juz WaNA sAid Dat :

huA..I NEVA rEgrEt TO NoE euU..LoVE u ISh wAT i one ..!!i neVA REgreT FaLL IN LOvE wiF u..``EVyNItE i tHInk N I sAiD to MYsElf..Why shuD i LoVE eu?!!Why sHUd I CHooSE to LovE u?buT I CanT GEt De ANsWer!!DAtz wat mY HEarT OnE..i neD u in My lifE BUt i noe U WonT thiNK DaT so cuZ ish noT IMpORtaNT fER eUU oso..!!fER U...IM Juz A TIny ANts daT cAN be LEavE TherE wiF no fEElInG!!I DUn mINd....whEN I noE u dE 1st tIMe..I NOE wAT ANsWeR wiLl I GEt N waT wIll be The MOral vaLue FeR dAt..!!I reaDY TO faCE alL Diz ...I wiLl go On MysElf WitH NO TEarS,,!!n iF u Ask mi toO sTOp LOvinG euU,,I sWeAr N tEll u De TRutH I CanT..U can JUZ foRgeT mI anETIme buT i wonT..I jUZ wAna leAve N be ALoNE feR dE reSt Of My lifE..!!i reLi beEn huRT SO MAny tIMEs..oNCe N ONCe u BlUff Mi..u noe hoW mY HEarT FeEl??i rElI cANt COnTiNUe ANemORE hUA..!!I'vE rEle trIEd to BE sTRonG n FAce ALl Diz buT AT LAsT i noe i cANt jUdGE uR lIFe..AT9 I dREam of Euu..I relI hOpe De DREam WIlL CUm TruE..N I hOpE i WONT Wake uP fOReVA..I wiLlINg TO contINue DreAMinG OF u tHAN dISSaPEaR wHEn i WakE UP..Diz iSH GoD deCIsIOn..I wiLl OBEy hIS coMmAnd ..``he wiLL DEciDe Wat wiLl HAppEn One daY..miRACle?!!I wiSH tuU...I Can teLL EUu dE tRUtH if I JUZ lEavE qUEiTlY I cAN ImaGinE dAT ISH RElI HaRD fER mI to SUrVIVe wiThOuT u!!BUt i REli WIsh U Can TReAT The OthEr gER beTTEr thAn Dat..cuZ wAt geR neD IS lOve N a Warm Hug fRom A gUy..APpREcIAte dE pErSOn BEsidE eUU..U maY nOt Noe WAT MAy HAppEN De 2Nd Day..WheN U reAD diZ BlOg WE aRE not neITher aNEboDy AneMORe..``I woNt MiND if u prEtEnd dunO ME..Is AlriTE!!..FrOM Tdy onWArd I WIlL leT euU Go..I woNt jUDGe UR lifE anEMorE..``ReMEMber alwayz SmiLE to DE woRlD..N tHE wORld wiLl SMilE to u,,mIss EUu SO mUch..``duN gIv Up In watEva U DO YEaHX.u WIlL bE a PRofEsIonaL hAir stYlIsh in dE fuTUrE..Gud Luck TO u hUA!!!

BAby pIIkO lOve EUu SO MUch..!!!

Nothing that I do, is felt by you.de thought of you in everything I do, now seems so pointless.The way you pass me by, only leaves me with a sigh.Life is so meaningless without you by my side.I will always remember...The day you walked away, without anything to say. I only felt the pain inside.So here I have to say, that I still love you even now, today. But it's too late so let me say my goodbye.

When we first met, I thought it was love at first sight. I'll first phone call was long and ot of sight,we laugh and talked about a lot.We find we had things we like and dislike. I knew then that you were different and things would be just right.Our relationship moved quickly, but there were feelings that put you first, and near me.I started to think differently but then you said think positive, and put your faith in me, Iopen my heart, I let you in and I told you I consider you as my bestfriend and not just my boyfriend.When we use to talk on the phone, you use to tell me, that you felt a feeling inside you, when you heard my voice did not know was it true or was I getting played with, like a toy. I had the same feeling but it was inside my heart. Your first letter you wrote when, you said I will change for you, I wonder was it true, or could you have just been in love for, a first time or two.

I really never knew it was true or was you lieing to make me feel so blue, I can still hear you laughing, at things I said, and hear your, sweet voice saying, you silly, it's playing over and over in my head.

When you will arrive,I love you, would be the words I will say, I thought our relationship was for better or worse, no we did not enchange vows but we enchange words and promises I love you we would say, now you is gone,you left me alone.My message to you, Never leave the one you love for the one you like because, the one you like will leave you for the one they love.

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babY pIiKO